I'm so damn angry. I just can't fathom . . . I'm just so mad at the way the world is turning out. I mean, I'm so young and I can see that we're just all in this downward spiral . . . we're making up for screwups that happened ten years ago, and trying for quick fixes now, not thinking that in another decade, everything is going to come back and bite us in the ass. Things are declining at such a speed that we can see in it a single lifetime, and no one . . . ugh. And then, I think that the state of Americans in general is a very passive kind of knowledge - - we exist in our own bubble, able but unwilling to make ties to anything else that's happening - - going on about our business without any kind of conscious thought as to how our actions can be improved upon, or how at a little of our own expense (and not necessarily monetarily), a collective change can be made. We're so indolent, we feel so entitled . . . that the world owes us everything, and for what? Why? It just makes me sick to my stomach how we only care abut things when we are forced to, and only then are we angry, ignoring that fact that we have turned a blind eye to what was happening right in front of our faces all along.
I want to live somewhere that's more . . . I don't know . . . aware of the world apart from themselves. I just - I'm twenty-two and I'm fucking exhausted . . . I read and I learn and I think it's just so hard to fight for something when so many people are just content to take things the way they are. How can I come to . . . ::SCREAM:: That just because we can breathe easy (which we can't, thanks to the air quality) life is good? I'm all for being thankful for little blessings, and I am, certainly . . . but that's not an excuse to sit on our asses and watch as everyone else is struggling. I just don't understand. We've had - and always do have - an opportunity to know about what's happening in the world (even setting the election aside!) and we have chances to perhaps set things on a different course, and we don't. I can't help but feeling deflated that we fail ourselves and have no one else to blame, because people are so quick to point fingers. How can I be content with my life knowing that so many others aren't and that so many more others don't give a shit???????
P.S. I hate it when people take it personally that I don't agree with their opinions. I do realize that there is a separation between a person and someone for whom they may or may not have voted. I also realize there is a separation between a political figure as a person and a political figure as . . . well, in their role as a political figure. I may love hanging out with my boss at Happy Hour but hate working for her in the workplace. I'm having a hard time dealing with my own feelings about issues, obviously - - this isn't some sort of personal affront to anyone who doesn't feel the same guilt as I do about many, many, situations.
I want to live somewhere that's more . . . I don't know . . . aware of the world apart from themselves. I just - I'm twenty-two and I'm fucking exhausted . . . I read and I learn and I think it's just so hard to fight for something when so many people are just content to take things the way they are. How can I come to . . . ::SCREAM:: That just because we can breathe easy (which we can't, thanks to the air quality) life is good? I'm all for being thankful for little blessings, and I am, certainly . . . but that's not an excuse to sit on our asses and watch as everyone else is struggling. I just don't understand. We've had - and always do have - an opportunity to know about what's happening in the world (even setting the election aside!) and we have chances to perhaps set things on a different course, and we don't. I can't help but feeling deflated that we fail ourselves and have no one else to blame, because people are so quick to point fingers. How can I be content with my life knowing that so many others aren't and that so many more others don't give a shit???????
P.S. I hate it when people take it personally that I don't agree with their opinions. I do realize that there is a separation between a person and someone for whom they may or may not have voted. I also realize there is a separation between a political figure as a person and a political figure as . . . well, in their role as a political figure. I may love hanging out with my boss at Happy Hour but hate working for her in the workplace. I'm having a hard time dealing with my own feelings about issues, obviously - - this isn't some sort of personal affront to anyone who doesn't feel the same guilt as I do about many, many, situations.
